Sunday 18 January 2015

BE AMBITIOUS WITH YOUR LIFE

Quote and design:  Lindé Davies for An Urban Village
Quote and design:  Lindé Davies for An Urban Village
I am at a turning point in my life...  I can feel it, and because I can feel it, I know it and I know it is happening to me right here right now.  But I am not sure how, or which way things are turning.  Ever felt that way?  I have so many ideas and ideals, and I feel at the moment I have this boundless potential, however, my current environment is not allowing me the growth and development to reach that point of fulfilment.  I feel like I'm a tiny little bird in a tiny little cage, with the most beautiful wild garden just beyond my reach, I can see it and I can smell it and I can feel the sunshine and rain and the wind - but I am in this cage and I feel like I cannot spread my wings, I cannot experience fully what is outside.

At the same time - I realise I am the cage;  its me and no-one else that's holding me back.  I am responsible for myself and for where I am finding myself.  But what is it that's holding me back, fear perhaps?  Fear of failure or fear of the unknown or fear of becoming a more true me?  Have I become complacent with where I am;  have I lost my fight for the life I know I am supposed to lead?  No, I may have lost my fight up to now - but it feels like something inside of me is stirring and its ready to break free into the unknown - wherever or whatever that may be.

All these questions, all these thoughts, and my mind seems to be milling over and over and not a moment of quiet - but I don't know where to turn.

So - on Friday I found a site online - they offer career couching, and I thought to myself that's it -  I need to speak to someone who can objectively help me refocus my vision, and help me re-adjust my abilities - in order to get to where I'm supposed to be.  I filled in an online form, and within a couple of hours I had an email from the office and they were setting up a call for the same afternoon.  A half an hour free consultation.  Great, progress in less than a day!

A couple of hours later I had a call from Evelyn, from Seven Career Couching - and we had a most inspiring chat - I felt at ease to chat with her freely and openly and she was engaging and I think this is a path that will definitely assist me just to get a bit; no a lot! of clarity on my life, where I'd like to be - and how to ultimately get there.  The last question she asked me was this:  what would you like to accomplish at the end of our couching course?  I though for a moment and I said - I want to live an ambitious life.   And that's where my first quote originated from: be ambitious with your life.  Its quite empowering to say these words, to believe in them, and to keep repeating them.  Print it out, stick it on your wall - surround yourself with positivity... and you'll become more positive and more inspired.

Saturday morning I woke up with the following on my mind:  be your own kind of wonderful ...
be unique, be you, believe in yourself, believe in your own kind of wonderful, and be just that.  The world doesn't need copies of copies of copies of people, the world needs you, just the way you are - perfectly imperfect - share the beauty that is within you, share the sadness you may feel - share the uncertainties, share the honesty of your life. Sometimes we feel broken, sometimes we feel inspired, sometimes we feel like we need some quiet time to absorb and to figure things out.   And sometimes we need to reach out and ask for some direction, reach out and ask for some help.  And that for me is one of the most difficult parts of this journey - but one I must venture on in order to venture forth.  To grow, and to break free from the cage that is holding me back.

And it suddenly kind of dawned on me - that if within half an hour she could help me realise this one thing - what would we not be able to accomplish if I booked some time in with her.  Today I received an email from Evelyn on the next steps, the packages they offer and how to proceed.  I think its a good enough time as any to get going.  Take the first steps, make the commitment - and hopefully see some change.

But first... that dreaded admin of filing my tax return... that awaits alas.  But after that life can continue again and I will take this

Images by me

Quote and design:  Lindé Davies for An Urban Village

Quote and design:  Lindé Davies for An Urban Village

2 comments:

  1. This is a lot of what I'm feeling at the moment. Thank you for sometimes being at the same place as I feel I am. Reading your blog can be a real tonic sometimes.

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  2. You're very welcome; and thank you too! Perhaps we're journeying in the same direction somehow - growing and exploring and being mindful ... we'll get there in the end, and if we're not there yet - it's not the end. Happy travelling and lots of light and sparkles x

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